Guru and Alo came in, Alo behind Guru, Guru’s eyes moving rapidly as he enters blessing all while they proceed to the front of the dais. Short standing meditation. All are seated.

Guru asked all those to stand up who feel they need sincerity.
I thought to myself, “shall I? That is one thing I believe I have. Well, others stand. Yes, but there is no limit to any quality’s abundance. Yes, I shall stand up.” I stood firm in my sincerity. As I concentrated on Guru his face and figure became most of the time lost in the mist of blue waves of Light, glowing, deep, filling the room as he looks around. “OMMMM” he chants. We all bow and sit.

Guru asks all to stand who need purity. I thought, “Yes, here is a blessing of blessings. He will give. I have faith. My sincerity is blessed. I DO want to free from impurity. I have faith. I am free and through with it all.” I stand and concentrate on Guru. I felt surrender, opening in my vital. “OMMMM”. We bow and sit. I look at Alo. I felt a slight irk in the back of my being. Oh, I don’t care, nothing shall hide in me! I am opening my entire being to them, this is the opportunity!

Guru asks for all those who wish to conquer jealousy. I think “yes, I want to be free, truly. Glad. I stand up firm in my determination. I love my brothers. Jealousy is so stupid! We all meditate with Guru in silence, feeling ourselves open wide to His cleansing Consciousness-Light. “Ommmm”.

Then Guru asks for all those who either doubt their own aspiration or who doubt their love and ooncern for us. Alo repeats, “those who doubt our love, care and concern.”
I felt hesitation, a wave of anxiety. “Well, yes, I do. I must stand, it is for illumination, i must root it out.” I stand.
Guru looks back and forth at the disciples, doesn’t stop at me outwardly at least. I humanly wish he would. But that is the doubt itself arising. Perhaps here is the opportunity to realise his inner concern! I feel rushes of heart-gratitude. “Ommmm.”

Guru says this will be the last. “All rise who feel they can realise the Supreme in this lifetime.”

Many stand. Slight hesitation in me, but no, “I will”! My thought explodes. “I’ll be the Supreme’s victory from depths to heights! With Him I can! I stand, very determined.
He powerfully looks about, stopped, generally at me. I meditated as though he was on me. No thought, occasional thought, but not clinging. My faith and serious sincerity was very deep. He again returned to me, I was pretty sure he was right on me. (I was only 10 feet from him, my seat was in the front row.) He stayed on me as though he saw I was really open and in trance-surrender. I felt a few vain attempts, weak attempts by my physical mind or body to move, but it was on the surface and it passed in a second as I didn’t care for it at all. But my entire being was rapt in sincerity because he was really focused on me, and I was motionless, one-pointed sincerity, open-wide motionless, He and I! “Ommmm”.

We all bow and sit. Then Guru said for us all, one by one, to go up to Alo to recieve a blessing-gift: a United Nations calendar. A little fear tries to get in me, does a bit, but I say to myself: “I don’t care, I’m going up to her and will stay firm in my sincerity. I will not give in to unconscious fear. No!
My turn, quickly I step up and look immediately into her right eye, she leans, I remain open, Her love goes deep, a small surge of fear way deep inside me, but not bothering me, I don’t care. She smiles, I smile. Happy! She entered me, I received Her! Lelihan snapped the photo. I sit happy. So glad.