Guru and Alo came in, Alo behind Guru, Guru’s eyes moving rapidly as he enters blessing all while they proceed to the front of the dais. Short standing meditation. All are seated.

Guru asked all those to stand up who feel they need sincerity.
I thought to myself, “shall I? That is one thing I believe I have. Well, others stand. Yes, but there is no limit to any quality’s abundance. Yes, I shall stand up.” I stood firm in my sincerity. As I concentrated on Guru his face and figure became most of the time lost in the mist of blue waves of Light, glowing, deep, filling the room as he looks around. “OMMMM” he chants. We all bow and sit.

Guru asks all to stand who need purity. I thought, “Yes, here is a blessing of blessings. He will give. I have faith. My sincerity is blessed. I DO want to free from impurity. I have faith. I am free and through with it all.” I stand and concentrate on Guru. I felt surrender, opening in my vital. “OMMMM”. We bow and sit. I look at Alo. I felt a slight irk in the back of my being. Oh, I don’t care, nothing shall hide in me! I am opening my entire being to them, this is the opportunity!

Guru asks for all those who wish to conquer jealousy. I think “yes, I want to be free, truly. Glad. I stand up firm in my determination. I love my brothers. Jealousy is so stupid! We all meditate with Guru in silence, feeling ourselves open wide to His cleansing Consciousness-Light. “Ommmm”.

Then Guru asks for all those who either doubt their own aspiration or who doubt their love and ooncern for us. Alo repeats, “those who doubt our love, care and concern.”
I felt hesitation, a wave of anxiety. “Well, yes, I do. I must stand, it is for illumination, i must root it out.” I stand.
Guru looks back and forth at the disciples, doesn’t stop at me outwardly at least. I humanly wish he would. But that is the doubt itself arising. Perhaps here is the opportunity to realise his inner concern! I feel rushes of heart-gratitude. “Ommmm.”

Guru says this will be the last. “All rise who feel they can realise the Supreme in this lifetime.”

Many stand. Slight hesitation in me, but no, “I will”! My thought explodes. “I’ll be the Supreme’s victory from depths to heights! With Him I can! I stand, very determined.
He powerfully looks about, stopped, generally at me. I meditated as though he was on me. No thought, occasional thought, but not clinging. My faith and serious sincerity was very deep. He again returned to me, I was pretty sure he was right on me. (I was only 10 feet from him, my seat was in the front row.) He stayed on me as though he saw I was really open and in trance-surrender. I felt a few vain attempts, weak attempts by my physical mind or body to move, but it was on the surface and it passed in a second as I didn’t care for it at all. But my entire being was rapt in sincerity because he was really focused on me, and I was motionless, one-pointed sincerity, open-wide motionless, He and I! “Ommmm”.

We all bow and sit. Then Guru said for us all, one by one, to go up to Alo to recieve a blessing-gift: a United Nations calendar. A little fear tries to get in me, does a bit, but I say to myself: “I don’t care, I’m going up to her and will stay firm in my sincerity. I will not give in to unconscious fear. No!
My turn, quickly I step up and look immediately into her right eye, she leans, I remain open, Her love goes deep, a small surge of fear way deep inside me, but not bothering me, I don’t care. She smiles, I smile. Happy! She entered me, I received Her! Lelihan snapped the photo. I sit happy. So glad.

Nov.14th Guru’s “Veda” Lectures at Wellesly and Harvard. Starting at Welesly. The Chaplain changed our lecture from the Chapel to a lounge. Brief panic, but actually it was justifiable. Guru arrives with Druhva. I open the door for him. He smiles a bit and walks on to the men’s room to change. Then he goes upstairs to the lounge.
I wait for latecomers, then go into the lecture. Small crowd. Many do not look at Guru- not receptive. He speaks into small podium mike that crackles and is blurry. He sits in a chair while he is videotaped. He radiates waves of gentle blue-gold Light, a short meditation, his eyes moving back and forth rapidly. When he finishes and gets up, all rise. Many do not know what has happened and walk out quickly. Guru passes through the door, I hold it open for him. He motions for me to get his shoes, i pick them up, his shoes in my hands. As though I carried their weight in gold, I held those precious shoes, (To this day, I still vividly recall that moment). I followed Guru slowly down the stairs. At the bottom he didn’t know which way to go. “This way Guru”, I said. I lead him uncomfortably. At the driveway we stop. Guru asks me if I had a ride to the next lecture. I said “yes, I could go with Matt” and the UCONN boys. “Goood”, Guru says. Silence. I stand with him, holding his shoes.
Alo comes on the scene. Her car had broken down. She waited for 45 minutes, then finally got it started, got lost then …”terrible directions, very poor map’ Guru says. “Harit drew it!” (Oh boy, I felt guilty, although Michael drew it!) Then Alo turns to me, I don’t think she even said hello, but just started saying the girls were outside and perhaps wanted to come in a bit, she walked to the door. I insisted I’d run out in the rain (of course!) and tell them to come in
When I came in Alo asked if I could drive Ranjana’ car, and they’d go with Druhva. I said I could and would. Guru and all were getting into Druhva’s car. I opened the second passenger door, put Guru’s shoes on the floor and said “Guru, here are your shoes.” “very good”, he replied. I closed the door gently. (For the rest of my life I shall remember that moment. I carried God’s shoes.)

At Harvard it was a big white hall, Quiet. Many people, about 300, sat silently. Alo is in the balcony. Excellent P.A. system.
Guru spoke softly, we all heard him well. He told about the “Seven Sisters and the Seven colours, etc. He went on telling people they should accept life and aspire, and how spiritual Masters give knowledge of the Veda through silent gaze! Then he began a silent meditation filled with Peace, Light, Bliss, Power, blue Light radiating though the entire hall. He never looked at me over on the left-hand side of the stage. I was yearning inwardly for union with him. I sat in awe and was captured by an intense, silent surrender. It gripped me. I sat silently, motionless, and wept within to receive more Light. Letting go of the strings of apprehension allowed me to open a bit more. Patience is so important, not to be over-eager, not to pull at him.
After the meditation many people go up to the stage to sign up for the Boston Meditation Groups. All are moved by the silent meditation.
I held the door open for Guru as he left the hall. He smiled. He didn’t stop or look directly at me, but said happily as he passed me “wonderful, wonderful!”. My heart exploded with happiness.
On the way home our car pulled up at a stop light behind theirs. Alo gives us cold onion rings. We followed Guru and Alo’s car for 15 miles and then passed them and drove back to Connecticut.